10.02.2012

SHOULD I STAY OR SHOULD I GO


Two things you need to know about me. #1- I am a perfectionist. #2- I am very indecisive. I count those both as faults as they tend to get me into a lot of trouble and wasted time. This is where they get me into trouble in the blogging world.

PERFECTIONISM:
My favorite blogs are not only the ones that have fresh DIYs and down to earth bloggers behind them; they are also the ones that have amazing layouts. The photos are big and crisp, the background is cute, the fonts are handwritten or unique. I don't have any web design skills and also don't have Photoshop (maybe someday), so my blog has been pretty basic and DIY by trial and error up to this point. I look back at posts and think how I should have done the photos differently or not posted certain things. At this point the perfectionist in me says I should start over and leave my old blog with all its mistakes behind. Blogger has the capabilities to post bigger photos now and hubby recently gifted me with a DSLR, so I told myself I could start over and when people look at the archives of my new blog, it won't look so silly. Then I started looking at the archives of the "perfect" blogs I follow. None of them started out with the amazing photos or designs they have now. And then I realized that looking at their archives of silly, badly lit photos doesn't make me say "ewwww," but rather inspires me seeing how much they've learned.

INDECISIVENESS:
Welcome to my inner monologue: "Maybe I should start a new blog. I could give it a cute name and start fresh and have nice photos. But I've been blogging on Crooked Shmooked for 3 years, do I really need to start a brand new blog and leave Crooked Shmooked behind? Would a new blog be better? Oh gosh. It's such a hard decision to leave Crooked Shmooked behind. Oh My Goose Nest would be a cute name! And it can be about the family and DIYs and thrifting... It would be so cute." Then I spent a few hours designing Oh My Goose Nest and said my goodbyes to Crooked Shmooked. Then next day my inner monologue and doubts came spilling out my mouth to hubby as I asked him if I should just stay on Crooked Shmooked. His reply, "I don't know, sugar pie honey bunch." Okay, he doesn't really call me that, but he should. Fast forward a couple weeks. I find out my favorite blogs didn't have it all together from the beginning. I start to feel like I let the perfectionist side of my personality take the driver's seat in my blogging decision and that rarely ends up being a good thing. New inner monologue begins: "I shouldn't have started a new blog. I can change up my blogging, start posting better quality photos and do a new blog design and still be on Crooked Shmooked. Can I seriously go back to Crooked Shmooked after already saying goodbye and starting a new blog? Gosh, I am so indecisive. Ugh. This is ridiculous. I am going to look so stupid. Oh well. This is who I am. I guess I'll just explain it all. It is one of my new desires to share my failures along with successes. Ha. How can I be okay blogging like that if I am leaving behind a blog that has some failures to try to present a perfect design on a new blog? Okay. I'm going to do it. Crooked Shmooked it is."

So here I am, returning to Crooked Shmooked. I will be deleting Oh My Goose Nest and moving its two blog posts over here. Feel free to laugh or roll your eyes at me. I am doing both of those too. Heidi, Heidi, Heidi...

1 comment:

Taylor Berthiaume said...

Hi Heidi, so this makes so much sense. I started reading oh my goose nest a few weeks ago, then hadn't seen any new posts in quite awhile. Just checked in again and figured out the whole "I switched, then I switched back" thing. Hehe, it's okay, it makes a lot of sense. Thanks for fun words, ramblings and inner monologues :)

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